i want people to like things i like but i don’t because they’re my things
i have finally found a text post that sums up my entire life in a sentence
like this should be my senior yearbook quote
no it’s my thing
Nobody really knows the impact they have on someone else’s life. We don’t know about the people who wait for us, think about us incessantly, put things on hold for us, are in pain because of things we’ve done or said. We’re clueless to the suffering, happiness, longing, desires, hatred, arousal that occurs at our expense. And thankfully! I can’t even imagine what the world would be like if we got some kind of notification every time we were discussed, thought about, masturbated to, cried over, or have emotionally devastated another person. The exquisite inner pain I feel sometimes - the people who are the root cause of it - it would ruin them to know what it does to me at times. I don’t want that. Or maybe it wouldn’t. I don’t want that either, oddly. I don’t know what I want. But I hope for awareness. I feel pain at the thought of what I’ve done to others.
I can’t change it. Neither can you.
We’re all harboring our own emotional fugitives, and they will continue to hide and run so they never get caught.
Making this list for the purpose of analysis.
- I can’t.
- I cannot.
- I can’t even.
- I cannot even.
- I am unable to can.
- I am unable to even.
- I have lost the ability to can.
- I have lost the ability to even.
- Can we just not
- Things I can’t even
- I am all out of can
Please add if you have seen others!
One interesting question I think is to what extent can you substitute other modals/auxiliaries/tenses for the “can” in these phrases. So for example:
- I don’t, I just don’t. ??I shan’t. I won’t, I wouldn’t, I shouldn’t (already standard off the internet).
- (…I don’t think there are other single-word phrases here.)
- I couldn’t even. I don’t even, I didn’t even. I won’t even, I wouldn’t even, I shouldn’t even.
- I am unable to do. I am unable to will. I am unable to should. *I am unable to would. *I am unable to may. *I am unable to must. *I am unable to might.
- I have lost the ability to do. I have lost the ability to will. I have lost the ability to should. *I have lost the ability to would. ?I have lost the ability to may. ?I have lost the ability to must. *I have lost the ability to might.
On the other hand, since “can” is paraphrasable as “able to” or “have the ability to”, then maybe the sentences in (5) and (7) would sound better with different paraphrases:
5’. I am not doing do. I am not going to will. I don’t have to should/must. It’s not possible that I may/might.
7’. I have lost the potential to will. I have lost the necessity of should/must. I have lost the possibility to may/might.
I don’t even know if any of these sentences sound okay anymore. Thoughts?
(I’m going to use the tags “can’t even” and “to can” on this to try to make this topic more findable, since these phrases are so frequent in non-internetese contexts that they are well-nigh impossible to google.)
Guys. Hey. Hey guys.
This coming Sunday, September 30th, is a huge improv event. Mendoza will be competing against 2 other teams in a show called Indie Cage Match. 3 independent improv teams will perform and then the audience decides the winner.
WE NEED YOU THERE! If you’re in the NYC area, please come to this show. It’s at Upright Citizens Brigade East Theater on 3rd Street and Avenue A. It’s $5. It’s at 7pm. If we win, we keep going. If we win 3 times, we get to compete in the big show at UCB Chelsea against teams who have been performing for like a million years.
THIS IS MAJOR. Please come. THANK YOU!
excuse the crooked-ness im being lazy ha
My special pendants ♥ (I have 22 pendants and more of them with nordic themes, and 2 rings :)
If you ever read any post by me, this is the one to read. It’s very important! This is a photo of the upper half of my face as a result of a severe chemical reaction to hair dye.
I’ve debated on whether or not to make a post about this because I’m completely mortified with how my face is looking at the moment. However, I decided it’s much more important to share with you guys because I know a lot of you dye your hair.
Anyway, my good news is that I’ve achieved my natural hair color, blonde. The bad news? I had a very severe allergic reaction to the chemicals during the coloring process. I have been dying my hair for the past 8 years or so. I’d primarily used dark, chemical-based dyes throughout high school when I was dying my hair black. After high school, I’d bleached my hair a few times and then grew it out to its natural color. About a year and a half ago, I bleached my hair out and started using manic panic colors on it. Every time I changed the color, I would fade my hair as much as possible with shampoo, then bleach it out. After my manic panic fiasco, I chopped all my hair off to start fresh, and dyed it a dark, reddish-brown.
Throughout the career of dying my hair, I’ve never experienced more than a little scalp irritation. Last Thursday, I had dark color lifted from my hair, then bleach and color processed over that. A few days later, I began to notice my face swelling. The swelling quickly went from a small spot on my forehead, to the bridge of my nose and around my eyes. I’m currently home visiting my family, and once my mother saw it, she decided it was necessary to take me to the ER.
I want to remind all of you, in the past, I’d never had more than a bit of scalp irritation. As my face began to swell, I decided to do a little research. There are plenty of articles online about this happening to other people. Almost all of the articles stated that the women who experienced similar reactions had dyed their hair plenty of times in the past and had never had issues at all, until the sudden onset of this^ type of severe reaction. Some cases even resulted in death due to airways closing or body going into complete shock.
I guess all I’m really trying to say here is be EXTRA careful when using chemical-based dyes, if you’re going to continue to do so. This can happen to anyone, even if you’ve not had reactions to dyes before. Chemicals are never coming near my head again. If this type of reaction were to occur again, it could kill me. It’s similar to one experiencing a severe allergic reaction to bee stings or peanuts.
The doctor gave me steroid pills and a topical scalp treatment. I may need to go back in later this week to get shots/more steroids to help with the swelling. Today, both of my eyes are halfway swollen shut. Be careful and be safe.
So I did something that scares me yesterday. I walked across the Manhattan Bridge. 1. I was born and raised here in NY and I had never walked across any bridge 2. I am not afraid of heights, rather I am afraid of walking over water. Its weird, I am fine on boats but walking over water freaks me out. I didn’t know this till a couple of years ago. I was in Boston with a couple of my cousins, and we were sight seeing. We were walking across some bridge over there. I was half way, and then for whatever reason I looked down at the ground and realized that I could see through the floor. I saw the water beneath me and I kinda freaked out a bit. I was telling my cousin I’m gonna shit myself. They all still find it funny that I freaked out.
So I was walking around downtown Brooklyn yesterday and found myself at the entrance to the walkway of the bridge. I took it as an opportunity to get over this phobia. So I stared walking across the bridge. I was fine walking until I got to be over the water. The anxiety started building in me, but I pushed through it and made it across. I’m gonna walk across the Brooklyn Bridge next.
What phobias do you guys have?
I have for some reason always been fascinated by Crows/Ravens. I think it has something to do with the fact that there are a couple of crows in my neighborhood. Its really weird that there are crows in Bushwick. I feel like I have connection with them. I feel like I am the only one that notices/ pays attention to them here. I might also just be crazy. They have been around me since I was 12 and they always talk to me.
I will not wish you a Happy Valentine’s Day. I believe that we should show our love, admiration and appreciation for people everyday, not just on a on another day that has been turned into make more money off people day. Love each other every day not just today. Happy Tuesday!
Aw this just made me think of my Grandpa. This was his brand. This was the first thing I smoked ever when I was like 6 too. Don’t make that face! What else was I supposed to light the fire crackers with?!